And the year ends...

Wow just a few more hours left for the New Year. I was just thinking how did my year go...well it was okay...not bad not good...just okay.Anyway just wanted to put down a few things tht I realized this year...here it is..

- Taking care of one self is very very important...health is indeed wealth! Exercise is so important.
- Where ever I go...at the end I just want to be home...even though I don't like being at home.
- Distance education sucks.
- I am the most patient person in my family.
- Doing nothing sucks...doing something tht I don't like also sucks!
- After a hard day...its so good to talk nonsense n laugh madly...it lets u forget everything.
- How much to dream.. got to wake up someday.
- Kids will make u tear your hair apart...they will also make u smile.
- Fights with people close to u shouldn't be taken seriously...in other words shouldn't keep a grudge.
- Its so amazing to have friends.
- Some things just don't change...n other things change when u just don't want it to change.
- It is important to know n speak hindi well....n marathi too.
- Pretence works fine sometimes...as in pretending to be happy when u are not.
- Blogging is quite nice...it becomes a part of one's life.

That's it..hope u all have a beautiful, crazy New Year!
Cheers.

Simply Shit!

Feeling so sick right now...how what why...don't ask...but I am. My head is filled with so much of shit....its talking every time....can't shut it up also. Jst feel like whacking it on n on...till it stops talking...take my head, my feelings, my eyes away...cuz I jst don't want to think...don't want to feel anything..don't want to cry...

I want to go away...where what how when don't know....but I jst want to go away...not cuz I'm fed up with people around me, cuz I am constantly talking in my head n I need to quieten it...n I even know by going away it will not stop talking...

That's it...I have nothing further to say..

Goodbye.

Death won't do us apart

I found something interesting n thought I'll put it up here. I got this bookmark last year...n it was really heart melting types. Then I kept it nicely somewhere n jst recently while clearing up some stuff I found it...I don't know by whom is it written. Anyway so here it is..

Death is nothing at all. I have only slipped away into the next room. I am I, and you are you. Whatever we were to each other, that we still are. Call me by my old familiar name, speak to me in the easy way which you always used. Put no difference in your tone, wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow. Laugh as we always laughed at the little jokes we enjoyed together. Pray, smile, think of me, pray for me. Let my name be ever the household word that it always was. Let it be spoken without effect, without the trace of a shadow on it. Life means all that it ever meant. It is the same as it ever was; there is unbroken continuity. Why should I be out of mind because I am out of sight? I am waiting for you. For an interval, somewhere very near, just round the corner. All is well.

Silent Conversations..

An Old friend…used to be a close friend.
SS: hi, how are u?
Me: Ya ok, how u?
SS: fine. what are u doing?
Me: nothing just on the net. So done with shopping n all….when are u going to Delhi?
SS: 1st morning…
Me: accha….
Silent…for 5 seconds
Me: So how is everything…Aah is home?
SS: no he’ll come after 9.
Me: oh..okay…
Again silent…more than 5 seconds
…a little more talking n then…
Silent for 10 seconds…
Me: ok then chalo bye..
SS: yah yah bye..
Me: take care have a nice trip…
SS: yah thanks..
…line disconnected…

Another old friend…used to be my boyfriend.
..online…
Square: Hey
Me: Hi, How dee?
Square: kewl n u?
Me: fine. how is it out there?
…waiting….waiting …n ping
Square: yeah kewl..
Square: its so much fun here…
Me: Nice…
Square: what are u doing? how’s bla la..
Me: yah im doing this that…everyone’s fine..
waiting waiting….
waiting waiting…
waiting waiting more waiting…
Square…goes offline…

A close friend…a day after a fight.
Enn: Hi
Me: hi
Enn: where are u?
Me: at home..
Enn: oh!......how are u?
Me: okay..
Silence for 5 seconds..
Enn: what?
Me: what?
Enn: what?
Me: nothing!
Enn: ok I have to hang up my bus has come…bye
Me: okay..
…line disconnected…

How hard is it to keep it clean!?

I stay in a beautiful complex, it used to be beautiful...until a few months ago people have been using the building as their own dustbin. Every floor u climb u'll find red spit marks....it disgusts u. u'll see shiny wrappers, food stuff, etc etc. Dude my window neighbour is the biggest spitter. The tin roof of the floor below has become so red. yucckk! Twice I had told them to stop spitting n throwing things, which obviously fell on deaf ears! My friend from the building itself who stays a few floors below me has a different view from mine n her side is worse. People throw sanitary napkins also yaar...come on! I feel shameful writing this over here, how they don't feel ashamed throwing it...uff! Anyway so my friend n me reached the point of frustration n decided to make people aware of this, taking the help of the chairperson (well the chairperson has done enough already). So my friend n me printed out a pamphlet saying,' to keep clean n if anyone witnesses anyone throwing, spitting pls complain to the society office.'
Then we went to the chairperson to get her signature. She agreed n was glad tht we were doing this cuz she's so damn frustrated telling the residents on n on abt keeping the place clean. Then we made copies n knocked on every door n explained...most of them nodded, agreed n denied. some screamed so tht others could hear, ' I know! what junglee people stay here'...n we were content with what we did. we stuck the pamphlet in the elevators too.
After a week....the pamphlets disappeared from the elevators. The cleaners do the regular cleaning of the building n the amount of kacchra tht was collected from one building was unbelievable. My neighbours still spit, still litter. People in my building still spit, still litter. I wonder who went n complained to the society office!

It's My Happy Birthday :D

Just announcing my birthday out here (smiles, smiles n more smiles...that's what I have been doing all day) I had a nice day today. Not feeling really old....but the number seems pretty big....scared ya...just. Too many thoughts, so many things to chalk out n act it out. Anyway....Happy Birthday to Me....me all new, me all 22!!

I felt really nice!

I stayed for a few days at my eldest sister's place, just a few buildings away from mine. She was not well, was advised bed rest for 2 weeks. n so she needed my help around the house. I have two nieces aged 12 n 3....n it was maddening staying there n telling them what to do n what not to do n well they did listen to me. Anyway so on one of those days.... it was a lazy Sunday afternoon I was lying on the bed n was talking to Didi, n Jazs my older niece joined the conversation, was half listening n talking n whatever...then Zenbi my younger niece came on the bed n was doing masti as always.....wants to be close to her mother. So as we were talking...didi was telling Jazs how when I (as in me) was little she used to look after me n play n all with me (the age difference between my eldest sister n me is 12 yrs) .
So she was telling Jazs that when she (as in didi) won't be there, then she (Jazs) has to take care of Zenbi n all. So didi was explaining this to Zenbi. So didi says, " If i am not there Zenbi who will look after you?" and Zenbi sitting on didi's stomach pointing her little index finger at me. I smile. Didi, Jazs laughs n didi says, "oh ho! No Zenbi your didi will look after u!" then after a minute didi asks Zenbi again in Hindi this time, " Jab mammam nahi hai toh kaun tumhe school leke jayega?" still sitting on didi's stomach points her little finger at me again....and I was all smiling n feeling really nice. I am still smiling.

Tips to hide your personal diary

Hmm...so u write a diary n you want to keep it away from people who really want to get into your life n ruin it....so here are a few tips to hide you journal.

• First of all you should have your own space in a sense a cupboard, shelf where you keep all your books n other belongings. If you don't have one make one n if you don't know how to make one contact me ;)
• Your cupboard/shelf has to be full of your things only. Do not share....if even you do share....keep your things neatly so that nobody needs to touch things n arrange it for you.
• In between all your books/ files n other things keep your diary piled up, it should look like one of the books.
• Make your diary look ordinary. I know you would want to make it look beautiful would want to decorate it n all....well you can but then everyone would know what is the purpose of the book n would want to know even more. so u can cover the designs if u made any with ordinary paper like newspaper, brown paper, etc.
• Don't show your diary off to everyone even though you trust all of them, cause you NEVER know when is it gonna be read!
• If you don't have the space to write cause there's everyone around all the time....then camouflage it with notes, books around you, showing that you are studying (it works well if you are a student) n nobody will disturb you.
• If you don't want to keep your diary at home then you can carry it with you if it's not adding extra load.
• Always after writing keep it properly n check it before leaving the house.
• You can let only one person who you trust the most in your life to read your entire diary, cause if you die that person can keep your diary/diaries without you worrying about it going to the wrong hands.
• If you are going out for more than a month you must carry your diary with you or lock your cupboard or give it to someone who can keep it safely.
• If writing a diary doesn't work after writing for so long then you can have a digital diary, that is writing on a word document n put a password for it which is very important if you share the computer with other people.
• Or write it on the web, or in your email saving it in your drafts.
  

Happy diary writing!

Howzzat!

Wah Wah Team India...Mubaraq ho!!

What an awesome match...the whole series was dammn good! Pakistan was really good too. A totally unforgettable match.

source: http://worldtwenty20.yahoo.com/

Faces of a Woman

Strong. Silent. Emotional. Intelligent. Beautiful. Madness. Mood swings. Multi tasking. Super Woman. Trying to always keep a pleasant atmosphere. Protecting. Worried. Anxious. Wishing. Fighting for justice. Fighting for individual freedom. Fighting. Repressed memories. Loving. Loved by everyone. Sad. Happy. Neat. Caring. Carefree. Careless. Stubborn. Trustworthy. Devious. Understanding. Misunderstood. Hate men. Hate life. Hatred. Secretive. Dark secrets. Sharing. Sharing lives. Independent. Dependent. Alone. Lonely. Sexy. Sexual. Lust. Fantasies. Lost. Confused. Can take any shit without saying a word. Naughty. Childish. Bitchy. Revengeful. Conscious. Alert. Confident. Confidant. Problem solver. Problematic. Problem creator. Problems never ending. Thinker. Thinking. Deep thinking. Thoughtless. Famous. Want to be famous. Has always been famous. Perfect. Imperfect. Okay.


To all the women in my life...love you.

Hypocrisy/Richness/Happiness/What!

She was an ordinary college going girl with high aspirations...with principles that almost everyone would agree with and follow it too.
If you didn't finish your plate she would say 'do you know there are so many people in this world who don't get to eat....and you waste this little bit?'
She wouldn't buy a leather wallet or leather shoes...not because she couldn't afford it but it was made of animal skin.
She avoided the use plastic bags except when it was really needed, cuz she knew plastic was non bio-degradable and we could reuse, recycle it.
But today she is all grown, associated with big companies, famous among her peers, and her principles seem to be disappearing...
She throws away the left over food....cuz there is no one to finish it off and it will get spoiled.
She went shopping for her family members and bought branded leather bags. She owns more than one too.
Plastic bags...now, it is always needed.

When Strangers meet...

Her Diary:
21st June 2007
Dear Diary,
I met him today....it was awful. I don't know how can he talk so much on our third meeting. All he did was talk about the movie he watched recently n said "ekdum jhakaas tha". We talked about work which was not very interesting. I didn't understand what his dept. does neither did he understand what mine does. Anyway...then the bus came phew I was relieved, we get into the bus....n he continues talking...but this time he was talking about school.....argh! I was listening what else. Tomorrow is a holiday thank goodness....I don't get to meet him.Good he doesn't have my phone number...if he asks I won't give it to him...I'll make up something. Anyway bye I gotta go....I'll write soon.

His Diary:
22nd June 2007
Dear Diary,
Oh I wanted to write to you yesterday but didn't get the time. Came home and got busy with the electrician. Anyway, I met her yesterday also...it was such a beautiful scene-she n me standing at the bus stop a slight drizzle and the colours of sunset- beautiful. the scene ended when the bus came damn! We talked. she's really sweet. I have never met anyone like her before. Today was a holiday...man I missed her. I wish I had her number I would call her up just to listen to her sweet soothing voice. I'll meet her tomorrow. It's like now I look forward to go to work...earlier you know how I hated to go. Anyway, I'll write tomorrow....more about her.

Who me!?

Yo...I am here to list down 8 random things about me and maybe unknown to others. Well this is written when any blogger 'tags' you among eight other people he/she has tagged..but as I am 'new in here' and nobody really knows me, so nobody has tagged me...so I am simply writing about myself cuz I like the idea. So here it is...

1. I so hate doing my eyebrows & upperlip X-( dude it hurts big big time!
2. I recently discovered I write 3 different f's in the word 'effortful'.
3. Totally being unaware of it, I break into this song 'Tujhe dekha toh yeh jaana sanam' and I go really fast. This is so not my favourite song but somehow this is the only song that comes to mind.
4. I've got lost 3 times till date...lost meaning really lost that someone else found me and handed me over to the family incharge! And one of the times was when I was 18...it was pretty embarrassing! But like that I have been lost many times...like losing my way and finding it back...which happens almost everyday.
5. Another recent discovery...I can wink and whistle at the same time ;) well its not difficult at all...I asked my friend to do it and she could do it too, so anybody can I guess...ok I thought I was super talented!!
6. When I was in school, I was pretty much a good sprinter...so one of my friends wanted to know how is that I run really fast. So me the super talented woman...told her that you should hold a small stone (any random stone) in your hand and with that you practice and you can run really fast...! Some technique huh...
7. I so don't like it when people in a group, or just two people sitting, standing together and looking at me or whoever and they talk, smile, laugh and are still looking at me....and say 'nothing', 'kuch nahi' when questioned! Grr..
8. And finally, I love travelling by train...apna mumbai local....although I know how crowded it is and it can get worse...but I love it very much.

That's it...! Bye ;)

The 'Soap Story'

Hi, here is something I found quite amusing and would like to share it with you.
This is written by my 12 yr old niece and she would like to be called Jazs :)

So introducing you the soap story unedited...

There was a beautiful girl named Rexona & handsome boy named Cinthol, Rexona & Cinthol fell in love with each other. Rexona's parents were Hamami & Margo, Cinthol's parents were Wheel & Nirma. Rexona was very excited to make Cinthol her Life-Buoy. They wished to marry & approached their aunt 501 who convinced their Parents. Rexona & Cinthol were very happy in their love they fixed their marriage at Fair & lovely garden opposite Santoor theatre at Medimix city ... They invited their friends Lux, Dove, Dettol & Savlon and others. Rexona & Cinthol got married and lived happily in Pears and after a year they got twins Johnson & Johnson.

Really nice Jazs...taaliya...

New in here

Yo! So finally I created a blog id fr myself...but fr what, I have no clue. dont really know what to write in here...what to share with people...I wonder who will read the Crap I write in here....but anyways i'm here so might as well I write something. Ok so thats it....I welcome myself into the blogging world :) chalo bye see you someother time..